Sunday, 26 January 2014

Seeking a way forward... Computer full of treacle and grit.

How quickly things change in life. 

Only a short time ago I had set up a potential new blog to be about living with our house and garden which require a bit more energy and money than we have available. I started writing introductions to try and get a flavour of how I would approach the new posts, It was even mentioned here to see if there would be any encouragement. That was in the early autumn as the growing season in the garden drew to an end and I began to lay it up for the winter. I was busy before going to get my toes repaired. Yes, they are fine, so no need to ask… All trace of that potential blog has been erased now.

If I had an interesting story to tell I think it is the one I have told here, there may be more to tell but post ideas just do not come to me like they used to do. 

What is there to say beyond life has turned out so much better than I had ever imagined it would and unless I am sitting at the computer I do not give my past transitional life much thought, I get up in the morning and get on with life as I should always have been able to do without having to play a role to fit in with expectations from the rest of the world. The world I lived in did not implode by my being my true self, it just got better as the distortion field I had maintained around me broke up.

During my online life I really expected that part of my life to slowly and continuously expand. I was drawn here often several times per day to see how others were getting on and was always eager to join in conversations, the latter still applies but nearly everyone has melted away…

I have rarely abandoned a post but after lunch the tirade at the stupidity of large tech companies is out of my system, is now deleted, and you have no need to know why I have taken against google but them having a file on my computer which drew 94% of the processing power was the final straw! Caroline was an early user of G+ but is no more. Social media does not seem to be for me. In all the time I was there my input generated far too little interaction and I certainly do not want everything I do online all clumped together in one place, and as has recently happened, out of my control. If my comments require an "f "or a "G" profile, as more seem to, then my voice will not be heard…

I have been here long enough for many of you to know my routine, make marmalade, wonder about what to do with the garden this coming year, dream about possible holiday trips, just refer back to previous january postings… Obviously I have been doing a few other things but I now feel less inclined to write a public diary and more inclined to just get on with the new life. If I don’t post so often it is because I have far too much to do round the house and garden, more than enough for this lifetime. 

Post op updates have been my least popular posts so the two year one due on the third of February is here, now, between the lines and I feel should be the last anniversary update since everything has settled down just fine. Any further changes will be no different to the everyday changes my half of the population all go through…

It has been said before, I have an email address and will happily give you an individual blog post reply with joy…



  1. I still cringe when I hear of your lovely toes !

    Hope that the weather isn't getting you down.

  2. You could write about the things you are doing around the house which have more relevance to you and not some subject grasped out of thin air! Write or don't write, it's all up to you Caroline. I think you are very wise to get Google+ out of your system and I don't just mean the computer!

    Shirley Anne x

  3. I've had difficulty putting finger to keys recently. I missed the toes, so I'll be scrolling down to see what that was about. I'll also be checking your Google post.

    I love the sign post, is it still in use?

  4. Becca, nobody has ever called my toes lovely before, now I can die happy.

    Shirley Anne, my life is very dull, who would want to know?

    Anji, I don't know if it is still in use but it was last week when I was returning from lunch in a newly built tower house in a small Glen on the southern edge of the Highlands.

  5. Well Caroline I would but your life is dull only if you think it is and if it really is dull then who is to blame?

    Shirley Anne x

  6. Shirley Anne. I thought that you came from the humour capital of Britain.

    Perhaps you were reading without your humour sensors fully charged...

  7. They come, they attain gender conformity, and they go. You should be no different, Caroline. I've loved reading your writing over the years. Thanks for being there.

  8. As Calie writes, that is the process, isn't it? I have work reasons galore that now interfere with my own writing, but when you come down to it, what more do I really have to write about other than day-to-day life? My own journal may revert to being little more than a story of my travels to far flung countries. That said, I have always enjoyed your writing, Caroline, and hope that you will not disappear.


Many thanks to all who ever joined in the conversation and to those who took the time to follow my zig zag to a new life..

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